I walk in silence. The wind turbines are looming overhead, their blades cutting through the wind, swooshing rhythmically. A narrow asphalt road is leading us into the green horizon. I’m reminded of what a perfect day this has been. I have come to some powerful realisations in the circle this morning, and I am still feeling overflowing with joy and love.
As I feel the bliss rising with me, bubbling like a beautiful fountain which just wants to explode through the crown of my head, I notice my mind trying to make sense of it all. Even though our walk is supposed to be silent, I find that I just can’t hold myself back any longer. I have to share this joy. I turn to one of my walking companions, Simja, a trainee staff members at the centre, and I say to him “I think I may just explode with so much joy!”
Simja looks back at me, slightly amused. “Just be quiet, Ley”. He says, lovingly. “Turn your attention to the source of your joy. Don’t let your mind chatter. See if you can simply feel into your gratitude”.
I am slightly taken aback by Simja’s words. But I choose to follow his advice. As I silence my mind, turning within, I suddenly notice the bliss welling up again. It’s overwhelming! But this time I don’t try and make it go away. And suddenly it becomes clear; there is nothing but this feeling of bliss. There's no “me”, and no Simja left, only Joy and the taste of Bliss , which completely fills the moment. It’s breathtaking.
I have to share this! This is too much! I turn to Simja and point to the cow in the pasture beside us. “Look at what a beautiful creature she is!”, I say. He turns to me, with a big smile. “Stop projecting Ley” he says. “It’s You who are beautiful”.
I stop again and take this in. I take it ALL in. My mind begins to expand. It expands and extends until it contains everything. An immense feeling of gratitude washes through me. But as it grows I notice that this gratitude is not coming “from me” but from beyond myself. I realise that the gratitude that I am feeling now is being reflected back to me, from my Source, from my innermost reality. It was as if this Source felt my gratitude and joy, and was now responding back, with a message directed to me. It is wordlessly saying “thank you, Ley!”. The message is so clear. It tells me that it is my happiness that the Universe wants, it is my joy is that the Source of my being desires, more than anything.
I am walking now in a perfect circle of Love. A perfect, holy moment of bliss and joy. My Source and I share our gratitude. We are One in our thanksgiving. And as I allow myself to feel even more profoundly into this Oneness, I notice that the more gratitude I feel, the more comes back to me. It’s so clear to me now what they mean when they say that “giving is receiving”. There is just One Love.
Simja walks with me, silently, smiling. With each offering of gratitude that I direct to my Self, I feel the response coming back in waves, expansive joy growing bigger and bigger within. I’m looking at Simja, knowing that what I am feeling now is being communicated to him too. This moment is for us All. A pure moment of Oneness, of boundless bliss-filled love.
I look out again, to the green hills and valleys. Before us, the landscape is stretched in all it lush and tropical glory. And I remember still, that this view, this scene is also just a projection. The beauty that I see is within my mind. The hills, the windmills, Simja...none are not outside of me. I am one with this landscape, with my Self.
And how beautiful is this landscape of my Mind! Where once - only a few weeks ago - my vision was a dark picture of despair. Now it has been replaced by breathtaking beauty. Every hill, every cow, every windmill symbolises the beauty of my own Mind. Where once were sadness and despair, now is beauty and grace and pure bliss. The crazy world of dreams is washed away by Love! I take a deep breath; I feel the joy penetrating deeply into my Heart. I look out and I know - “This is My bliss, My beauty, My own beautiful Mind, filled with the memories of a beautiful dream of creation. My creation, My dream, My joy.”
And so, even though I may believe that I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for evil cannot exist in a forgiven mind, filled with Love. The hand of my Inner Guide is firmly holding mine. I am always lovingly guided to see the truth in place of the stories I made up. I am so very blessed and so so grateful. So deeply loved.
Oh, what a beautiful dream! Thank you! Thank you!!
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12/8/2017 05:23:05 am
YES it touches me deeply to read it in my life experienced it not knowing how to describe the overwhelming feeling of (too much) ... choose again is an eye opener Look or step back I am within LOVE away from all suffering light as a feather...
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