"I could not become anything; neither good nor bad; neither a scoundrel nor an honest man; neither a hero nor an insect. And now I am eking out my days in my corner, taunting myself with the bitter and entirely useless consolation that an intelligent man cannot seriously become anything, that only a fool can become something." ~ Dostoyevsky
If Dostoyevsky is saying that he could not ‘become anything’ because whatever he ‘became’ would inherently be meaningless, then I wholeheartedly agree. But if that is in fact what he is saying then why the ‘entirely useless consolation’, did he not really believe that? I can become virtually anything I choose to become (you should see me doing pirouettes with the Bolshoi) and I am also keenly aware that whatever I choose to become ultimately has no meaning. In other words: only a fool can become something and believe it has any meaning at all. My worth is established by God, it is unchangeable. Now go have some fun.
Diederik Wolsak is program director at Choose Again